Confessionals!!!

[Spencer Bledsoe]

I've been so busy I haven't had time for confessionals!!! I'll do one later tomorrow!! have a giant break between classes

[Spencer Bledsoe]

finally !! time sorry for my lack of inactivity!

This coming from Mr. Survivor himself

so this whole no tribe thing at the beginning was just messing with my head. It was practically impossible to reach out to everyone and some of these people were so boring. Like I get we might not get along but at least try to keep a conversation going

I have built some relationships with people namely Erinn, Jaclyn, Chelsea, Crystal Cox!, Dan, Marcus, Adam, Tasha, Dolly, and Sierra. I think that's like more than half the people left in the tribe hahaha I'm off to a good start. build relationships AND THEN KILL THEM WITH FIRE. that's about what happened in the first quarter of this game

but I am suspicious of a lot of people haha I naturally am... but Robb is someone that worries me. Many people in the game probably wouldn't believe me, but he's dangerous and a thinker. Everyone was so sure marcus was going to go and Robb comes in and says oh Josh should go. ok that doesn't worry me. wait for it. "it's the first time Josh has been in the bottom, and if he goes then marcus can just stay on the bottom with me so I won't be a target" BAM hits the nail right down on the head. So what would've happened had Josh not been in this tribal. one of the rest of us will probably go home and that would be first move of the game. robb do you seriously think that you could control me like that? NO

but you know what, I mentioned it to Chelsea and Crystal. Chelsea was all ears she listened to me and definitely knew where I was coming from. like seriously it could have been one of us other people if Josh wasn't here. Crystal on the other hand told me "oh I don't think that's what Rob is trying to do. we shouldn't worry too much about him" you know where that makes me think, crystal you probably have a good relationship with Rob I gotta be careful of you. Don't get me wrong, I love talking to you but you'll need to go sooner or later

that's the most exciting things that's happened OH I made a deal with Tasha and Chelsea as an alliance. I really feel like we should keep this small so it doesn't get out of hand. the more people in an alliance the more problems we have with snakes. so lets keep this going for now

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Round 6! Tribes, Sketchy! BLINDSIDE

I can't say that when the tribes got split up I was unhappy with the selections, the only person I had absolutely no connection with is Kathy lol and everyone basically came to me for an alliance and I didn't have to do anything it was beautiful like artistic art .

so the first alliance offer that came to me was Erinn, Crystal, and Chelsea and they wanted to include Dan, I'm super fine with that. and Dan seemed like a good choice as a 5th because no one knows what adam is thinking and kathy gives people bad vibes. Apparently no one had talked to Dan yet so I decided I would take initiative. I mentioned making an alliance that included Chelsea and he says ok i'm super cool with Chelsea. here's where it gets interesting. he mentions being good friends with Kathy. lol she's the one I talk to the least and I also didn't agree with it.. 5 minutes later Kathy comes to me saying she heard that I want to work with her and that she would be down. lol woman I never approached you with anything I like how you just assumed I would be ok with it.

the second obviously was Dan and Kathy and of course I said ok lol
the third was a 3some alliance with in the alliance with Chels and Crystal

So we won the first challenge as a tribe. even though I didn't do anything... I guess that's what amazing players do they still get immunity and they don't do anything this second tribal however is super annoying. Dan was super bent on getting Adam to leave, adam then saved his ass by coming to crystal and I and chelsea. we talked it over and we all agree that Dan is super sketchy at this point. you don't really know what he's thinking and it's almost as if he was put into the tribe with people he's not close to. which is the exact reason he needs to go if you have too many connections on the other tribe, who's to say you won't screw us over when the merge hits!

the plan was originally suppose to be for Adam, then it changed to Kathy because everyone gets weird vibes from her too. Speaking of which Sierra, she doesn't talk much game and I'm pretty sure she was close with Kathy because she's super close with Dan. I'm not sure if she'll vote kathy with us. we'll have to see

this is all going so crazy!!!!! the votes changed again.. this time to Dan, and I do agree with that he has too many cnneections on the other side not to be a threat. I always say, kill the seeds with fire before they can spread!

from what I see it's going to be 2 for adam (kathy, dan) 2 for Kathy (erinn, sierra) and 4 for dan ( the rest). Crystal and I actually came up with this plan together since everyone was so sure kathy was going it was the perfect time to switch it to Dan.!!!!!

[Spencer Bledsoe]

omg Dan is gone!! I was having a bit of a panic attack like what if it didn't work... Dan messaged me after tribal and said "damn that's cold, but just so you know I was close with tasha". what are you trying to say to me dan? threatening me? well screw you , you were taken out because of all the connections you have on the other tribe1 Gotta expect the unexpected man, and just assuming with everyone that Adam is the right way to go. you know theres something called a decoy. Anyway Dan is gone and we didn't mention it to Erinn I think many people are probably wondering that

CC and I didn't tell erinn because although we are in an alliance. we don't know how close she is to Dan because she was originally the one that suggested Dan be on the alliance. So we decided to tell her about half an hour before the deadline so she wouldn't have any way to try anything

more goodness came as Chelsea told me that she got into the treasure chest!, but seriously hosts -_-, HALF AN IDOL? you can't actually expect people to share it NO ONE EVER SHARES THEM. at least now I know not to worry about idols til at least the merge... or the swap GAHH so many things to think about

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Round 7!!!! Bitches, Snakes and Relief

so After Dan left, Kathy obviously stopped talking to me and she knew she was the next to go. HOWEVER!!!! Erinn stopped talking to me as well. which makes me nervous because I don't know what kind of rumors she's going to go around spreading...... the alliance of Adam, me, crystal and Chelsea is holding strong I think!!!


so it was a really quiet day when it came down to it!!!! no one really talked because the group consensus was already decided last tribal. Obviously Erinn and Sierra have absolutely no allegiance to Kathy because they voted for her regardless last time. We lost the immunity pretty bad LOL but I wasn't really worried too much about it considered all that's happened.

AND THEN KATHY THE BITCH targets me and starts telling everyone that I'm the leader? SCREW YOU KATHY you can go die! even if I am the leader of that alliance which I'm not, you wouldn't have got me out with that stupid campaigning of yours, so take that butt off your stool and walk out like the quitter you are

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Round 8 Merge, and popcorn time!

SUCCESS MERGE!!!!!! can't believe I made it . can't say I'm really surprised considering I have had pretty close relationships but YAY. right after the merge was posted people started messaging me lol. Jaclyn Cirie Dolly and Robb to be exact. I'm not sure why robb messaged me because he's one of the people that I haven't been close with so yea probably just testing the waters trying to get info out of me. if I had a choice he would be the first to go

Cirie and Jaclyn I can totally see myself working with considering they were on the ousts of the other tribe. I KNEW KEEPING MARCUS WAS A BAD IDEA he's just a free vote to create blindsides. stupid robb..... and actually crystal told me that cirie and jaclyn would flip which is great because we need 7 votes. for a majority, we have 4 guaranteed here and jaclyn and cirie make 6 so worst case scenario we force a tie. I'm not sure what Sierra and Erinn are thinking, they said that they would want to keep unified but after blindsided them I don't trust them, it all has to do with how the first vote of the merge goes down. Tribal sucks but it does show a lot

Also I hate blind auctions haha, especially if I tie with someone I won't get the item -_- how are you even suppose to bid and what scares me most is what's in them.. double votes? idols? what -_- tell me!!!

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Round 10 betrayal, broken friendships, blindsides

So everything in the past 2 rounds is really crazy. I got what I wanted and robb was taken out. but it just didn't seem right to me, the fact that I've been so busy and not being as active as I normally am in an ORG really disappoints me. which is why the Robb blindside didn't really cut it for me. I wanted him out since the josh blindside and it was crystals move and not mine unfortunately.

on the other note OMG I WON THE DOUBLE VOTE. I never win anything when it comes to bidding or luck so it was a pretty nice surprise I intend to use it to help me crystal and Chelsea. whatever happens as long as the three of us are safe! gah I'm speaking in future tense...

ok So the Robb blindside was pulled off. and everything seemed well. Crystal won the challenge in which all the answers were her lol. To be honest I didn't really see any problem with the answers. it's kind of funny how crystal "has the most alliances" because I have a connection with everyone still left in this game lol. it plays out to how I chose to play this game being as active as I can be and that was to hide behind the big players and make the moves when it counts. Now Crystal and Cirie both want Dolly out! but I don't think so I like Dolly. The 2 of them think that they have Crystal Cirie Chelsea, Mine, Erinn Sierra and Adam's vote I'm going to try to get Erinn and Sierra to flip the script, I've built a connection with both of them so it would seem to be pulloffable

[Spencer Bledsoe]

I started talking to Erinn and she's definitely interested in flipping the script. She got Sierra on board and we're going to see if the old anubis would be willing to work with us. Its crazy because I've been part of every strategic decision chelsea and Crystal have made. but because I haven't been here I've just been labeled as a non threat.

I've been talking to Dolly and she thinks that it's really sketchy how everyone is telling her that the vote is silas. I broke it to her and told her the vote is on her, both as a ways to gain her trust and to plant a seed in that not only can she not trust Crystal but Cirie as well. She doesn't believe me when I tell her that Cirie is the one that flipped on them. They'll know soon enough I guess. I've also approached Silas because he's the only one from old anubis that was on. He's convinced I'm trying to distract him from the vote and he doesn't even consider that Cirie was the one that flipped. Marcus hasn't been on today so I couldn't talk to him. Both Dolly and Silas think it's Jaclyn. how can it be jaclyn -_- she's been off as much as I have been. but non the less neither of them will vote Cirie WHICH PISSES ME OFF. Are you guys going to let her to take over because she's been using you guys like toys. Both of them then suggested voting off Chelsea and if I wasn't in then don't worry about it. I Talked very long to Erinn and Sierra. All three of us agree that Chelsea is a great person and she DOESN'T deserve to go. but what can we do? we're three people and there are 11 votes

if we go with Cirie even with my self vote it would be a 4-4-2-1-1 vote 4 on Dolly 4 on Cirie 2 on Chelsea 1 marcus self vote and 1 jaclyn self vote. Which would be what? it would make us seem untrustworthy to everyone don't want that ... and that just confuses the shit out of me
or we go with voting for Chelsea and it's a 5-4-1-1 vote no extra vote. 5 chelsea, 4 dolly 1 marcus self vote and 1 jaclyn self vote

the latter really seems to be the best way to go BUT I really don't want to go that way. I really really do love chelsea and it hurts me thinking about having to blindside her

but then.. MARCUS CAME ON 36 MINUTES BEFORE THE VOTES WERE DUE. and he said that he's down to vote Chelsea..

I'm really contemplating whether I should do this or not... if I flip the script then I lose the trust of adam cirie and crystal BUT I gain the trust of silas marcus and Dolly, AND more trust from sierra and Erinn... I really don't know

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Round 11 major damage control... bitch is on fire

So we decided to go for Chelsea... I felt so bad that I had to write I'm sorry on the parchment... I hope she'll understand when this game is finished.

i've talked to Marcus Silas and Dolly about this and Silas is definitely warming up to me. I really threw myself out there for these guys, it would suck to get kicked in the butt after this... Apparently marcus has always trusted me and that he was freaking out before the vote and then sierra and I approached him and he's like "HALLELUJAH I KNOW I COULD COUNT ON SPENCER" if this worked out then I see me erinn sierra silas dolly and marcus as a 6 and we can seriously take control of this game.

Chelsea and Crystal haven't talked to me ... but Cirie is giving this oscar winning performance on the group chat. I think it's a decoy to distract us tbh. cirie crystal and adam are probably regrouping to see what they can do to get further in the game now. Adam has been asking me if hes the next to go and that he thought he at least deserved to know the blindside. except I"m sure he would've flocked right to crystal had we told him. I'm getting suspicious that one of the 3 of them have the idol from the auction it would make sense if we told them who's going home and they'd just idol ME out. I"m already absolutely expecting to get votes from the 3 of them next tribal.

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Major damage control is needed on Crystal. but I really don't care now.. she started messaging me and is obviously super mad at me for flipping. what can I tell her? that I was her goat. the puppet that would've have made it to the end with her? NO that's not how this works. and she's been telling me how she's been super genuine and that she trusted me and chelsea the most and I believe that, because like I said I really do love them to death. but does that make her any less of a threat? no! it really doesn't.

it's been really fake to me... shes going all crazy trying to figure out why i flipped and all of a sudden! "so what do you think we can do to pick up the broken pieces", "are we going to just hand one of those other guys the win"? oh funny, 30 seconds ago you were pulling my teeth out and then suddenly you want to fix everything? any thought of wanting to get back together with you just went out the door. And then you publicly announce all of that in the tribal chat? lol you left out the part where everytime I spoke of being the goat or the end game or our alliance you changed the subject or just disregarded it in general. I just said what was on my mind. I really would have considered getting back together with crystal because no one would suspect a thing after all that happened. but what can I do right.

all this and crystal wins immunity -_- the last person I needed to win. NOT COOL

because of that, now this vote is really .. i dunno.. because it's obvious cirie crystal and adam will throw their votes at me. and if the rest of us vote cirie or adam all together and they have that stinking idol. then I'm screwed. I'm not a fan of the russell game, but I started playing it and the first jury member hate my guts but I still want to get as far as possible.
so ideally I would want to split the vote in case there was an idol. chelsea had one half and it's gone now so theres no paranoia for that.

what I see is 4-3-3: four votes cirie, three me, three adam ideally I wouldn't want a tie because ties are never good. unless marcus wears it then it's hot . anyway I lost my direction. I would use my double vote to make it a 4-4-3 vote so if one of them uses an idol then whoever doesn't have one will go out 4-3.

I used this opportunity to make a final 3 deal with Erinn and sierra. and also threw it to dolly I really want to work with her. and I do, otherwise I wouldn't have done all of this. and I've made a final 2 deal with marcus. we'll see how it goes...

[Spencer Bledsoe]

I am genuinely surprised that I've been turned into the russell figure after 1 vote when crystal and Cirie were the ones that flipped out on everything. I'd just like to say this is the type of game Spencer WOULD HAVE PLAYED had he been given a chance to do so in Cagayan. he pretty much layed it out in his meet the cast video.

adam I know you're mad at me but the reason that I didn't tell you is because I never talked game with you. I never knew what you're thinking and frankly if you wanted to flip the script on Chelsea and Crystal you would have done it with Sierra and Erinn. if you didn't trust me enough to tell me  then obviously you thought I was an idiot going into the merge

I don't know if I'll use my extra vote on adam. my target is cirie. not him. At least I can say that I did something honest 

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Round 12 Shaping things out, crazy Bitches are crazy

it's kind of crazy isn't it? I made one villain move and I've been turned into Kass! I made this move to further my game and whatever happens I know I play to the best of my ability. Because of crystal losing all her power I have pretty much guaranteed a final 7 spot because adam is here as well. NO I didn't throw adam under the bus on purpose. BUT I did secure a spot in the remaining 6 peoples plans. whether they want to take me or not is up to them


but more importantly Cirie is gone. which was my goal in the beginning. As much as I hate to say it. Chelsea leaving was the right thing to do. because it completely exposed Crystal and Ciries true selves. I'm contemplating asking the others to keep Crystal because as long as Crystal is there then there's always a bigger threat in the game that's not me. I know that Dolly, Erinn, Sierra and Marcus trusts me not sure about Silas but I would like to expose the relationship a bit more. and Jaclyn who hasn't been on as much as me .... it's really hard to talk game to her too because she's not saying anything about game and stuff. 


looking into the future, Ideally I would want to go to the finals with Marcus and Sierra. because Sierra hasn't really done anything and I've been in an alliance with Marcus since day 1. Not only is he super hot butwe pretty much promised each other we'd keep each other safe since the first day. We gotta make our Spencer Marcus relationship well known and I mean in the Charlie sense - he's nicknamed me Sparlie <3 awe doctor why do you gotta be so hot. 


did I just say all of that out loud?? OOPS its a secret guys shhhh <3


Ideally Crystal would leave this round unless she wins immunity AGAIN -_- then adam would have to go.... maybe i'll blindside one of the goats... Jaclyn who knows >< I could be next and have no idea